wednesday, march 3, 2010
maybe this is why i don't get into relationships. maybe i consciously avoid them to avoid that emotional attachment. to avoid that sense of silence. to avoid the moment where you both realize you have nothing more to talk about.
maybe this is why i was always the guy to fuck. and then go. i would fuck. bust a nut. and leave. i do my part. you do yours. and we both leave. satisfied. and a little empty. but in that moment we're both satisfied. and a little high. and neither one of us will worry about the other. how he's feeling. if he enjoyed it as much as i did. if he likes me. because it was only sex. not a relationship. just a momentary fix.
so what is it about this guy that has me so invested. so enthralled. that just being in his presence makes my day that much better. why is this guy different from the rest. and do i still want to take the time to find out if maybe. just maybe. this guy. and me. could be something special.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
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Awww, good luck with it all!! :-)
ReplyDeleteFingers crossed, babe.
ReplyDeleteJust one thing ... holdfast to why you are in Cali ... and how much it has taken to get you there.
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don't worry school is still coming first plus the guy has like a 12 hour job and works six days a week, but luckily we have the same day off. and he wouldnt let me lose focus. if anything everything else is making me lose focus, hes one of the positive things thats happened the last two weeks.
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